Question

What defines you? Molds you? Sustains you? Controls you?


Philosophical Belief
Man's entire motivation is a search for personal meaning and purpose. This facade is what we live our daily lives beneath. But this search is the downfall of man, for we are meaningless. To search for what is not there is the downfall of man. If we really want to be happy we must accept that we are insignificant in this plane of space and time. We must take life as it comes and be happy with it. A search for meaning will not bring us joy, because it cannot be found. Joy comes with acceptance.




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The Poem



Questioning

On and on, does anybody know what we are living for?
What was it—I paused to think
It was a mystery all insoluble
Why am I fighting to live if I am just living to fight?
Who I am hates who I’ve been
How can I hope for a friend?
People today have the means to live, but no meaning to live for
So we parted; and I pursued my way…

Searching

A figure appears in the doorway
“God is your Father in Heaven. He knows you personally. Jesus Christ is the Son of God and your Savior. His life and teachings are the way to peace and happiness.”
They nod to me and I to them
I had been passing alone
“Hare Krishna!”
“42...The meaning of life, the universe, and everything”
Trippers and askers surround me…
On and on, does anybody know what we are living for?
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Desperation

There was an iciness, a sinking, a sickening of the heart
“I can’t win,” I said softly
Is any of this necessary?
The man she married no longer exists
The average man can typically live his entire life without a mental breakdown, but every so often, someone snaps
I want my mama!
My mama's dead and buried
I want my life!
But everyone dies alone


Letting Go

Perhaps we are asking the wrong questions
Faith kept me back a while
I celebrate myself, and sing myself
I am satisfied—I see, dance, laugh, sing…
You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake.
You are the same decaying matter as everyone else,
and we are all part of the same compost heap
…It’s freedom from the old, corrupt, and dying thought
Free your mind


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